小草

      山上发现的一种不知道啥名字的植物，就这么一株孤独的盛开着，虽然没有鲜艳的花朵，却觉得别有一番味道。

      昨天下了一场雨，不知道应该算是秋雨还是应该算是冬雨，结果今天就感觉到秋天的气息了。早上出门，风一个劲地吹着，我穿着短袖居然感觉到了一股凉意。我看着被雨水洗刷得干干净净的天空，感觉心情特别舒畅。整天生活在污浊的空气中，看着灰蒙蒙的天空和灰蒙蒙的建筑物，偶尔有机会看见这样的天空居然会很感动。以至于我开始幻想什么时候可以达到财务自由，回老家乡下去过真正的田园生活。

      这几天一直都生活在烦躁之中，虽然知道很多时候是因为自己考虑的太多想不开，很多的谎言让我感觉很难受可是又没有办法真的戳穿。人真的是一种复杂的动物，大部分的时候都是在为自己考虑，完全不去顾及他人的感觉，所以即便以真诚的心去对待有时也会受到伤害。

Just… Thinking…

      Still on my way and I can not find the direction. I know there’s no one can help me but myself. I have a dream, but it will be difficult to realize. It always encourages me.

      Spend some time to create a service in my server and I haven’t thought that some one will contact me and ask me if I can sell my creation to him or cooperate with him. Web is really a miracle, but I think for the better future, I must be patient. Now about 3 hundred people will visit my server and produce 3 thousand page views. And I believe that it will more and more because I am be confident with my creation.

      My friend told me toady that his father got cancer, and fortunately it was found and fixed these days. The human is a fragile creature, so I should be glad that I am healthy till now.

      Thinking about some people, it causes me nervous. It is impossible that you stay alone and not be affected by some people. It is the destiny that some one will occupy some place in your mind and you can not wipe off easily. Maybe only the time will help you, and maybe you will suddenly realize that you have solve your knot after a lot of time and thinking you are full before, but……, in this point of the time river, you can not.